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[sheikah]

Okay, so, my job is having a talent show in September and my coworkers want me to enter it. I am a singer and do sing occasionally at weddings when I have the time but I am so weirdly anxious about singing in front of my coworkers >.<

I'm a massive perfectionist and I feel like I would worry so much about being absolutely perfect that I would screw up and then do worse than I might do normally. Which then would embarrass me because then my coworkers would be all 'Wow, I thought Phyllis said she could sing and she fucking sucks' and DNW.

But I would really like to win the money in the talent show. IDK, I talked to Jeff about it and he seems to think it's a product of my mother's constant putting me down (e.g. I win an award for voice, she rambles on and on about how my classmates Katie and Jenna and Megan are sooooo good and doesn't mention me at all) and that I'm actually a very talented singer.

Like, for example, I was all "Well, maybe I'm better than 60% of the population just because I've had some training," which I felt was realistic and Jeff was just like, "Oh my god you are so much better than that."

So IDK. This was a ramble.

Comments

[nozenfordaddy]

I officially like Jeff.

[sheikah]

As much as I want to throttle him sometimes, he is occasionally very good.

[nozenfordaddy]

I have heard some of the things you've posted and I agree with him. You're good.

[ravenrants]

My cliche'd advice:



I was talked into singing lead vocals for the company rock band, I was hardly perfect, and actually messed up a couple of times, but I had a BLAST and so did everyone else.

[sheikah]

Honestly I think my hangup is that I know all these people and I have this crippling fear that somehow my whole life everyone has lied to me and I'm a horrible singer and I will end up exposed like the crazy people who audition for Idol.

[ravenrants]

I had that feeling, too, but everyone was more than nice about it. I think if you just do it, you'll have fun. Forget about the competition, find something sassy you can dig your vocal chords into and let 'er rip.

[sheikah]

IDK, I just did a quick video with part of the song I want to do so I'll be brave and let other people listen to me before I embarrass myself. Also I look a hot mess today JUST AS AN ASIDE

[timetobegin]

awww no! money would be good though :D i'm sure you're AWESOME

[windandthestars]

I heart your face and your awesome voice. I vote DOOOOO IIIIIIIIITTTTTTT! Sign up, you can always change your mind later although I find most of the time talking myself into signing up for something terrifying is the hardest part.