sheikah @ 2014-01-20T16:24:00

2014-01-20T21:26:01Z

I never use this thing anymore. Sigh. Well, after rebounding a little my cat got sick again and we took her to our regular vet that had reopened post-holidays and found out she had cancer, so we elected to have her put down. It was a hard decision but I couldn't afford kitty chemo, if it would even WORK, and I didn't want her to suffer. I miss my little Zelda so much. We would have had her for four years come Valentine's Day.

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sheikah @ 2014-01-01T21:09:00

2014-01-02T02:10:50Z

I just wanted to post an update on my cat. Zelda was in the hospital for two days for IV fluids and antibiotics and since we brought her home, her appetite has come way up (two cans of food a day) and she looks like she's gained some weight. She has started using the litterbox again some and isn't having quite as many accidents as before.

I want to thank everyone who donated money or simply just thought about my baby for a little while, everything seems to have helped and she's on the mend.

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;___;

2013-12-28T02:47:41Z

Okay, so. My cat, Zelda, is in kidney failure, anemic and has a white blood cell count through the roof. They don’t know if the kidney failure is from infection or if the kidneys were having trouble before and that’s why she has an infection but today they ran tests for FIV and leukemia and she’s negative for both of those.

She has to be hospitalized and at this point we’ve spent over 500.00 and I literally don’t have the money to spend. I’m using money intended for household bills to pay for what we’ve already incurred. I’m not the kind of person who normally asks for help but my cat is like mine and my husband’s child. I am seriously contemplating what I have in my house that I could possibly sell to help pay for the treatment she needs right now. I have helped out people, both friends and strangers, sight unseen because I believe in paying it forward. If you feel moved to donate anything at all, my Paypal address is alphagam1032@gmail.com. There is absolutely no pressure to do this.

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Television!

2013-09-26T01:01:21Z

So in a strange turn of events, I am honestly going to watch some television this new season and not just twiddle my thumbs until Arctic Air and Game of Thrones come back.

- Elementary comes back tomorrow and I got caught up when I visited ceilidh so yay, I'm excited to have Lucy Liu and JLM back on my television.

- I have watched two episodes of Brooklyn Nine Nine so far and really like it! I mostly watched it because my husband said Terry Crews was on it and I miss Lonny on Newsroom but I am pleasantly surprised.

- I am going to watch the two episodes of Sleepy Hollow this weekend and see what I think. I meant to watch the pilot last weekend and watch it live Monday but uh, as you can see work happened and sleep happened. I've also got The Blacklist pilot which will probably be a thing that happens because James Spader.

- I have no interest whatsoever in Agents of SHIELD. But the internet seems to like it so yay for them.

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mildly annoyed

2013-07-30T16:39:48Z

So, Newsroom fandom went straight crazy Sunday night because Nina, this gossip columnist who hacked MacKenzie's phone and stole a voicemail Will left her, reveals the content of the message (that he never stopped loving MacKenzie) and says she wouldn't go out with Will because of this. Well, at the end of the episode she and Will fuck and Nina lies to Mac about the voicemail and doesn't reveal Will is in love with her. Okay. Cool.

Except fandom goes batshit that Will DARE sleep with anyone but MacKenzie even though Mac cheated on him and he's never moved on. Slut shaming Nina, glossing over Mac, calling Will an asshole, etc. Vitriolic.

Callie, Ruth and I were literally the only sane ones. NOW the ones who were the worst about going batshit are all "Well, we should be kinder and not fight, I don't think Nina is that bad," like it was their idea to begin with.

DA FUQ?

It's possible I'm focusing on this so I don't think about my dad today.

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sheikah @ 2013-07-29T12:45:00

2013-07-29T16:47:27Z

So last night The Newsroom fandom lost their goddamn minds and I am just like ummmm what? Still, a Newsroom meltdown is still way tamer than anything I've ever seen in Sanctuary.

In other news, I keep being reminded of my dad and the one year anniversary is tomorrow and I forgot to ask for it off so I'm going to be a goddamn basket case at work.

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sheikah @ 2013-06-24T17:37:00

2013-06-24T21:38:08Z

A very long-winded and overdue State of the Pups.

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eek anxiety

2013-06-19T20:31:12Z

Okay, so, my job is having a talent show in September and my coworkers want me to enter it. I am a singer and do sing occasionally at weddings when I have the time but I am so weirdly anxious about singing in front of my coworkers >.<

I'm a massive perfectionist and I feel like I would worry so much about being absolutely perfect that I would screw up and then do worse than I might do normally. Which then would embarrass me because then my coworkers would be all 'Wow, I thought Phyllis said she could sing and she fucking sucks' and DNW.

But I would really like to win the money in the talent show. IDK, I talked to Jeff about it and he seems to think it's a product of my mother's constant putting me down (e.g. I win an award for voice, she rambles on and on about how my classmates Katie and Jenna and Megan are sooooo good and doesn't mention me at all) and that I'm actually a very talented singer.

Like, for example, I was all "Well, maybe I'm better than 60% of the population just because I've had some training," which I felt was realistic and Jeff was just like, "Oh my god you are so much better than that."

So IDK. This was a ramble. ( And a video under the cut for demonstrative purposes )

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;__;

2013-06-08T01:33:14Z

So my cat, Myshkin, ran away on Wednesday. I have been trying to find him nonstop since then and I found him once on Wednesday afternoon and he hissed and ran away from me and I haven't seen him since (it also rained for like three days straight due to Tropical Storm Andrea).

Well, just now I was outside with a flashlight looking for him and I called for him and I heard this meow and I was SO HAPPY because I thought it was my cat and it was just a stray and I broke down in tears.

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Ugh Ugh Ugh

2013-05-22T01:33:15Z

My life just fucking sucks right now and I really, honestly need a vacation. I don't get a longish one until July (and even then that's only about 4 days) but I am going to the beach this weekend for the holiday so I guess that'll be nice.

Short trips just tend to stress me out more because I'm not away from work long enough to feel like I'm /away/. Besides. We're in full on cat-duty because of Oklahoma and they STILL HAVENT HIRED SOMEONE ELSE TO HELP ME so I am yet again doing the work of six people.

I'm also having to take business courses in order to apply for an MBA program and ugh it fucking sucks. Right now I'm in this STUPID computer course that's more headache than hard and after asking the professor half a dozen times if I could do the work in Office 2013 and being told yes, I could, the first fucking assignment (I've only had tests and homework before now and no projects) asks me to use a theme that doesn't exist in 2013. So now I guess I have to download 2010.

And I HAVE to get this shit done before I go out of town because it's due on midnight Sunday and I won't have internet while I'm gone >.<

So basically after having a temper tantrum and dealing with work (after I worked for 12 hours today - I got to work at 4AM and didn't get home until after 4PM they still called me to log in remote) I am saying FUCK. IT. ALL. and watching Riker being a badass /TNG

UGH UGH UGH.

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writing

2013-05-16T16:39:42Z

I have a bajillion WIPs so I guess I need to just list them here and be motivated to continue >.>

* Sci-Fi Big Bang 2013 Untitled Sam/Jack fic - this fic is pretty much plotted, I'm just having difficulty writing it because it's pretty angsty. Basically it's set after the SGA episode "The Return" when Jack makes that comment to Weir about how he wants a hot toddy and a hot...and then it cuts off? Well I've always assumed he and Carter had sex after that, so, the idea is that he has sex with Sam, she freaks out and takes the job as commander of Atlantis, Jack thinks she doesn't love him, angstangstangst and eventual happy reunion.

It's due in July, so I'm not worried (it's 4500 words out of 10000 and I'm only to Sam going to Atlantis) but I need it DONE.

* The "Wow, Cerie, do you hate happiness?" Magnus/Druitt fic that's set when he starts going apeshit insane. This one is hard because, again, subject matter and it's pretty dark and twisty. I am mostly writing it because I need to know for my own RP headcanon and people who are interested in Druitt being a bastard ought to enjoy it too. I've written them in a ship before but it's always before the energy creature made him go insane so this is a new thing for me. It's also pretty non-con and yeah, hard to write. Weirdly, as much as I don't particularly care for that ship, I love writing Druitt. I should play him at my other RP game or something idk.

* The "Wow, Cerie, can this possibly get any kinkier?" Will/Magnus BDSM fic where Will's a telepath/empath. Yeah. That's just shameless porn through and through.

* The "Wow, Cerie, I heard you like werewolves and Sherlock Holmes - sort of" novel that I'm writing. This is at 60,000 words and has no sign of ending, dear God.

* A Newsroom Will/Mac bunny I have regarding a $485,000.00 necklace from Tiffany and the current drama about the AP wiretapping (I am in the middle of researching this so it's accurate - which is why it takes me ages to write Newsroom fics always.)

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Council and stuff

2013-05-12T22:12:52Z

- Magnus is running for Council again at TR, here is her bid.

- I just got back from a weekend in Huntsville, AL where I tried out for Jeopardy. It was super hard.

- bleaaaargh

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ugh

2013-04-23T22:24:58Z

I try not to post about politics terribly much and try to keep that to discussions with my husband or with ceilidh but this just fucking burns me up.

( rant panties )

Now that I've had my Will McAvoy moment, I'm going to try and write some fic.

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i accidentally a teen wolf

2013-04-14T02:30:47Z

So I've been meaning to finish up S2 of Teen Wolf anyway, since I sort of fell off the wagon when my dad died and got behind and never caught up but I recently have been more and more inspired because of JR Bourne's incredibly sexy sexiness. ANYWAY. So I am heavily thinking about RPing him at TR if I can get an Allison (which one of my friends from outside the game seems interested in, so yay).

Anyway, so I decided to rewatch the whole series and ceilidh decided to join me because of Reasons (Read: JR Bourne) and we accidentally watched six episodes in one day.

Yeah.

In this rewatch, I find that I am still wanting to snuggle Scott and Allison and put them in my pocket and Stiles is still hilarious and Derek is the human personification of grumpy cat.

And Chris Argent is Really Fucking Hot. A complete DILF.

This was a post.

(I still don't care about Jackson or Lydia at all.)

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ooff

2013-04-13T02:26:58Z

So I accidentally had a social life tonight since we had a sorority initiation. I was actually okay with going, it's been a while since I went to a sorority event and it was an excuse to dress up pretty and be around lots of girls who care about Vera Bradley and Coach purses and pretty, floofy things.

I actually feel incredibly pretty today (which, for as much as I take photos of myself for blogging doesn't actually happen as often as you think) so I will share a picture. Makeup here is pretty boring - just my Naked palette and Orgasm blush and some pink lipstick I can't recall.

( warning: contains me )

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things and stuff

2013-04-06T20:05:26Z

- Sigh I used to have a Burn Notice icon and now I don't. Blast it all. I've been rewatching Burn Notice lately apropos of nothing and I forgot just how much I absolutely adore that show. Sam is still my favorite ever.

- I got back on birth control after a few months off and this is my first period and it SUCKS SO BAD. I know it's pretty whiny of me and admittedly my periods have been NOTHING comparatively speaking since I had my endo surgery back in 2011 but it's still a miserable experience. My new OB/GYN seems to be less of the opinion that I'm completely infertile (my old one, of course, being the dick who told me I was never having children ever just forget it) and wants me to be thinking in that direction soonish since I will have a better shot + get some endometriosis relief.

- Somehow one of my eyebrows got overwaxed (I HAVE NO IDEA) and I realize I'm probably overly critical and the only one who's noticed it but it's driving me bananas. I'm having to fill in my brows for the first time in my entire life and I just keep having these little breakdowns and whimpering because I don't have my big thick khaleesi eyebrows anymore.

- I'm really bored and want to RP but I just have no interest whatsoever in the tribbles plot or dealing with the fallout of it so I'm stuck. I realize this is my fault entirely so I'm not really looking for sympathy or anything (and not every plot has to cater to me specifically by any stretch of the imagination) but it's just weird to literally have about four tags going at any point. That said, I'm happy to pre-play some things for when the tribbles are gone because my characters are out and about and doing their thing.

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guh

2013-03-21T17:34:15Z

You guys I have the worst JR Bourne situation. I still haven't finished Teen Wolf S2 (I keep meaning to, and don't, and fail all over in a failing way) but goddamn Chris Argent. Why ever are you my favorite? Why?

(Iknowwhyithastodowithyourarmsandyourstubbleandyourgr10smile)

I haven't even dared to go looking for fic about him because I'm scared of what I might find.

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for tempusfrangit

2013-03-12T02:13:50Z

You're all welcome.

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I just decided to.

2013-03-08T11:32:32Z

I had massive insomnia last night so I uh, made my first fanvid ever >.>

Here it is, a Will/Mac fanvid for ceilidh (but I hope some other people around here might enjoy it).

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[Icons] 13 icons from "The Host"

2013-03-04T01:15:36Z

Discouraged by the lack of icons from The Host for my rping purposes, I made a bunch. Please feel free to snag with credit!

1	2	3	4
5	6	7	8
9	10	11	12
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Sephora Haul!

2013-03-02T21:23:10Z

This took forever but I finally posted a video + pics of my massive Sephora haul over here at my beauty blog.

That...was my whole Saturday. Someday I will get more efficient at video editing but today is not that day.

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sheikah @ 2013-02-28T16:58:00

2013-02-28T22:04:14Z

Yall I just got in a Sephora order that was almost $500.00 and it was fucking glorious. I heard choirs of angels when I opened the box.

(Yes, I am not the best example on how to be an adult but I just got married and it's not like I need towels and sheets and shit when I've been living with the guy for four years >.>)

I will do a video for my blog and link it here tomorrow when I can properly go over how amazeballs these things are but some of what I got:

- Urban Decay BB cream
- (2) Hourglass Visionaire eyeshadow duos
- A Kat Von D palette (The Ludwig one)
- A KORRES blush + mineral veil kit
- a NARS shadow duo
- an Urban Decay cream blush (in the color Bang, trolol)
- a travel brush set that is ADORABLE and PINK
- a new MARCHESA perfume, Gucci Guilty and DKNY Be Delicious
- some boring primers and moisturizers and stuff
- a Sephora Collection baked shadow palette.
- the Disney Jasmine shadow quad
- a green eyeliner from Make Up For Ever and a green gel liner from Bobbi Brown (what? Pantone's color of the year is Emerald! I am ON TREND).

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State of the Pups: February 2013

2013-02-25T02:01:42Z

I FINALLY did a State of the Pups over here.

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Urban Decay coupon

2013-02-20T21:37:39Z

So Urban Decay has sent me YET ANOTHER $5.00 off coupon code (they have to stop, it keeps making me buy shit >.<) so it's free to whoever my first taker is.

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Wedding!

2013-02-17T04:04:53Z

I know, yall are sick of hearing about this damn wedding but I got my photos from my father in law and I am posting the one where I look...less bad.

(I just intensely dislike full body shots of myself >.<)

( photo! )

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